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Of course, this article is titled somewhat ironically. Nihilism is one of those fancy sounding anomalies that signifies a lot to a lot of people, but ultimately means nothing- like happiness, or post-modernism. In reality, this article is for anyone just jaded enough to resonate. The authorities tasked with holding up the illusion of order and meaning in our lives are tearing apart at the seams, even god is rumoured to be dead- and she was supposed to be immortal.

From an early stage people push meaning unto you, and whilst this is a great kindness, their overzealousness can indicate the opposite is true. It can be alienating, even slightly grasping, the petty nature of our wonderful-yet fragile existence. We are cursed by an evolutionary hunger, to find meaning in the effortlessly meaningless, and the realization that we are searching for nothing can be as cold as sleeping in the rain. People that care about us sometimes understand this more than we do, but they try their hardest to shield us from the impending loneliness of leaving the cave, by putting us unto religion, or American idol- sometimes by force.

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Unfortunately, this does not seem to be working anymore. So here we stand, the passive army of the disillusioned. Ready to quench our ferocious appetites for something larger than our miniscule realities, with any ideology spat from the bowels of hell and heights of Valhalla. However, may I suggest to you dear reader, before you slip into despair- that you try hot chocolate.

Stay with me, I have a point to make.

Make no mistake, this reality is absurd. The world we live in- and the universe by extension- will forever be chaotic to our ant-like perspectives, but we still try our hardest to make sense of it. We try to form shapes out of dying stars billions of miles away and use it to chart the future because- why not? The cold, random, unyielding, and unfeeling world we live in takes away the ones we love- and there is nothing we can do about it but watch. We need to set our eyes on something, otherwise, to be perfectly honest- life is just not worth living. The only solution I have is hot chocolate; preferably white chocolate, because the taste of that diabetes causing sugar high is pure filthy sin.

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This article has taken forever and a minute to write, because I legitimately wanted to end this less anti climatically, but this is all I could come up with. There is no intrinsic meaning in life, the search for one is frankly quite overrated. In my humble opinion, the true reasons to live are the pleasures, passions and obligations we choose. We have the pleasure of choosing to indulge in, fight for, and fall in love with the minor details in this expansive universe. For me it just happens that hot chocolate at two in the morning ticks all those boxes. Embrace the small things; it’s the details that make life bearable- and when the timing is perfect- gorgeous. But if you don’t, at least have comfort in knowing that in the grand scheme of eternity your mistakes are profoundly forgettable.

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Rebel Essex
rebel@essex.ac.uk